Bravery

This blog is going to be about my slow and steady battle with shyness. I'll write about all the scary social situations I face and how well I do in my showdowns against them. Even starting this blog is really hard for me. Knowing that other people will be able to read it scratches against the shy barrier in my mind and makes me all nervous, but *grin* I don't intend to tell anyone I know about it and I doubt too many strangers will start reading, so it doesn't matter too much. And I'm feeling glad that I've even found the guts to start it. One small step for average citizens, one giant leap for shy-kind. That's how I feel about most things. All the things that are easy for other people are just terrifying to me. Carrying on a conversation with a stranger is difficult. Starting one is nigh-on impossible. Finding a spot to sit in class is terrifying. Having to peer edit papers/ have mine edited freaks me out. Group projects and speeches are literally my worst nightmares. I like to think that all of these somewhat irrational fears that I have to face everyday add up to make me a very brave person. I have to face a fear every single day, because I have so many. Just today, I had to go to church by myself (Aaah!), sit next to a stranger (Eek!), find a seat in a classroom (*fear*), carry on a conversation (you get the drift :) ) and even more stuff. Even pulling out of the busy parking lot in my car was scary. So I have all these fears that I had to face...and face them I did! I like to think that because I have so many fears, I have a lot of courage as well. Doesn't more fear equal more courage? I don't really know, but it makes me feel better to think so :). So, hopefully, by the time I stop writing in this blog, I will have been able to face and overcome many of my fears. Wish me luck!